Sorry I haven't blogged anything interesting lately. I also apologise that I've not tweeted for a while. After work I feel wiped out and just want to drink, eat and go to sleep. Life is miserable and a circle of routine until my retirement or death.
Lately everything is hard work. The days are gruellingly long. Getting up for work is chore. I always seem to feel tried, and barely able to keep my eyes open no matter how much I sleep.
I don't have anything interesting to publish today. I've tried doing some poetry but don't feel confident enough to post it on here. Writing something is better than watching TV, tweeting or drinking into oblivion.
Feeling this way makes me angry. Luckily I'm not freaking out enough to be put in a hospital again.
I wish some mania would return. At least I'd have higher energy levels and a positive "can do" attitude. In depression easy things are tricky to perform. Depression gives you a "to do list" that never gets done. Like the washing up if you can be bother to cook and feel like eating anything.
When you're depressed it is hard to get interested in anything exciting or things you enjoy. And when you do it's usually bad for you in the form of self medication with booze and drugs.
I know this post is empty. It's another waste of words. You've no doubt lost interest at this point and found something better to do.
If I'm good at anything recently it's slacking. I think this blog needs a revamp and a makeover. Some content that will benefit readers, offer advice for people with mental health issues and raise awareness.
I have some unfinished articles and advice that I should complete and publish on here. I always have too much on my mind. Several beers would be great but I know they won't help.
I understand your attention spans are short so I've put together my long articles on the left. Providing I make it through this week alive I promise I'll get round to it and make reading this thing more worthwhile.
